I've been doing my best to keep positive amidst the difficult times lately and I will admit that there are days that are really hard. However, many days are really great.
Unfortunately, due to the nature of my profession and the calling that I have to help those in need with their own health; This past weekend has been trying and difficult. Unlike many, I have a personal obligation to try my best to be on top of the latest research and methodologies. I have to use clear and learned discernment to weed out the conspiracies as well as misguided/misinformed/young science. So as I delve, daily into the cesspool that is the internet, it is unavoidable for me to see the dark side of the human experience. With the deepest trust in God, and a willpower that could only be described as from the Divine, I hold my tongue and not respond. I may be fuming internally, screaming in my own mind, yet I yield to that part of myself that I gave myself to, in full trust, to temper me. Yet, like a pressure cooker, I feel that the point has come for me to release some of the steam out. Not all of it, just enough for my soul to be able to bear what I am asked/called to bear. My hope is that what I write in this post tonight, might be of help. Maybe it won't help at all, but that is not my domain of control, and I will yield to the Greater.
As time progresses and the weeks continue with all the difficulty that surrounds an epidemic that silently scares us all, the true nature of people begins to float to the surface. In many ways this true nature, is at many times, years of built up residue, from trauma, pain, and learned/indoctrinated familial behaviors. As everyone's are drastically being forced to change against their own wills, people's connections to their residue become far more evident, upon which I notice a clear shift in base belief structures of most. Where instead of becoming patinated beautifully, many realize they have become corroded, pitted, damaged, and lesser of what once one can remember. This realization seems to generate a strong defense of the self and the subconscious, to try to convince the world around them, that this corrosion is desirable, aesthetically pleasing, and of the norm, upon which all should be this way and anything other, is simply distasteful. This pattern of one’s thinking has yielded what I consider to be dangerous paths of thought, that may not overtly be affecting the self, but can lead many around them to follow a path of self regression, disillusionment, and a progressively dissociative nature, upon which the person will not even be aware of their own self imposed prison.
I have seen this many times in practice, even before the virus affected the world, yet in a frequency that would be confronted, spoken to with care and discovery. However, what presides over the time now, is a popular thought that brings to the surface, an age old question, “Why are we concerned about the few, at the inconvenience of the many?” This may be a very broad statement and I am certain that there will be a ‘few’ outliers that will fall under more extreme circumstances. However, the message is the same. A message that on the surface seems logical, seems appropriate, and seems to simply, ‘Seem’. As innocuous as it may seem, the statement is dangerous. It supports the justification of the self over the needs of few. Yet, what is very difficult to perceive, is the scope of the ‘few’.
The simple fact that more people today are increasingly concerned about their own inconvenience and claim that the minuscule percentage of humans that are mortally affected does not justify the inconvenience, is the true reflection of the over encompassing nature of humans in the current age. What concerns me even further, is the fact that this past week alone, I have read posts, comments, and discussions, about the nature of assisting in Darwinism for the sake of capitalism and the current popular way of life.
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I still believe that these are times in the human experience that can make impressive change. I wholeheartedly believe that it is possible to find a better way. Most certainly, I do not believe that we should sacrifice the few so that the many can have wealth and go back to their previous way of life. I may be one voice, but I know I’m not alone. I know that I feel I am fighting alone in these times of a pandemic, but I know I’m not alone. I weep as I pray to my God alone for the strength and courage to help those who can’t help themselves, but I know I am not alone. My soul screams alone for the humans of this world to wake up and LIVE!, and I know I am not alone. I silently meditate in my room alone to be blessed with the Spirit of Life and the Great Fire to burn within me, that I might be able to give to those who need it, and even in this...
I know I am not alone.
We are not alone.